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oh boy.
when everyone forgot how to play hockey at the same time
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I will get over you; I know I will.
I’ll pretend my ships not sinking,
And I’ll tell myself, ‘I’m over you,’
‘cause I’m the [queen] of wishful thinking.
Different
“What do you mean, ‘It’s different now?’”
“What I mean by that is that it IS different. Nothing is the same. What I thought was there dissolved like sugar in water. The sweet memory dissipates and it remains what it was always meant to be but I didn’t want it to be: a memory. It wasn’t meant to be forever. It was what I needed and what we both wanted, at, the, time. Then it ended. Just like that. I can ponder it as much as I would like; until the day I day, what have you but never know why exactly. It’s kind of like wondering how the world came to be. It’s a great mystery. No one really knows exactly how or even why it happened, but it did. A bunch of random, unrelated events occurred and for a while I had what everyone spends their whole lives searching for. I had that silly amazing love. That kind of love that seems endless and fearless and makes you feel like nothing can hurt you. I had it, but the circumstances changed and love had to leave. It left. Now, I keep living, filling in the other parts of my life hoping that it will find its way back to me again, all the while not holding my breath. It is a sad truth, but even I am proof that people change. We both wanted love, and for a while believed we had it in each other but then we just didn’t. I don’t expect any of this to make any bit of sense to you, but I’m trying.
“And another thing: You would think that all these people trying to get with me that it would reinforce the whole ‘plenty of fish in the sea’ saying but it doesn’t. The difference this time around is that I’m no longer constantly wishing we never broke up. I’m not going on about how I am still in love with him and wish things were how they used to be. I’m not trying to convince myself that I am just going to have to settle with being the girl who obviously still has feelings for someone but is never going to act on them because she has also convinced herself of being better than that. I am stronger this time. No, life isn’t any easier but I have a better understanding. What’s different is that I choose to be single. What’s different is that I’m not trying to be what I think someone else wants because I want them. What is different, is that now, I can say no.”
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